I gave my valued fabric to a tailor to fix for me. I got there on the day he promised me to pick them up and to my utter dismay he had messed them up completely. He manhandled them and didn’t do them the way I wanted. It was totally beyond repair and I got so angry at him, as if he cared… I paid for the mess.
But why did I give them to him? I got desperate waiting for my seamstress who never seemed to be on time though she had promised. Now I’m sitting here with no dress to wear to the event and oh my dear fabric is destroyed beyond alteration. If I had being still and waited patiently for my seamstress to come, I won’t be sitting here disappointed and bitter like a lost chicken. You know that feeling when a tailor messes you up?
So you promised God to honour Him with your body and soul in purity. You think you are growing, your mates are marrying and you don‘t even have a boyfriend. You are desperate and questioning God and praying and crying but God seems silent as though He hasn’t heard or seen what’s going on.
You get tired of waiting and give up. You meet this guy, he have his way with you and leaves you broken without a ring. What now?
This is how we become when waiting on God. When we wait on God for quite a long time and we don’t see its fruits, it’s normal we get desperate along the way. But God is not moved by desperation. He’s moved by faith.
Sometimes in desperation we make deadly decisions only for us to learn a lesson of trusting in Him. Sometimes God keeps silent in our desperation to teach us to trust in Him because they that trust in the Lord, shall renew their strength, they shall run and not get weary and they shall walk and not faint”
God is saying, next time when I ask you to wait you learn to trust and wait. God denies us some things because what may seem good to us, in the end, won’t be good for us. Let’s learn to thank God for closed doors, anyway.
If you have decided to honour God and flee sexual immorality, chill and go through the process. No one promised the journey will be smooth and getting desperate sometimes is one of the few challenges you would face but if you are able to hold on to faith in God, your end will be glorious.
In waiting our strength is renewed, our faith is nurtured, God takes us through the heat of refining and making process but the heat doesn’t burn us. Instead, they produce us much better and beautiful.
You have come too far to give in to someone who doesn’t even know his left from right to manhandle and leave you broken and helpless. If you get desperate, tired of waiting and fall into the hands of someone God didn’t intend you to be with, don’t trust Him to keep it together. It will fall on the rocks!
Look back on how far you’ve come on pursuing purity, focus on the prize and continue honouring God. It may not seem tangible noe but God saves the best for those who trust and obey. The weeping, loneliness may endure for the night but joy shall come in the morning. Hang in there! Hold onto faith! Your best is yet to come! Just believe…!
Signed: Jackie Hanson
The Khayil Woman