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The Wounded Soldier

IMG_2738Grace got unequally yoked with an unbeliever, got into an ungodly relationship that left her broken in the long run. Michael was betrayed by a friend, almost a brother, whom he trusted so much. Jasmine lost her parents in a gory accident, they were staunch Christians, and she wondered why God didn’t save them and left them to die the way they did. All these people were Christians but they got wounded.

As Christians, we encounter different levels of heart wrenching experiences that cause us so much pain then get in between our walk with God. Some of these are avoidable while others are inevitable, like death. For the latter ones, we know that our warfare is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual forces. Therefore it gives us very little ability to know when they will come in order to prepare to face them. How about those we can avoid from happening to us, like Grace’s.

Right from the onset, something about the self-styled perfect relationship didn’t look good. It was bound to fail especially for Grace whose Christian faith opposed the principles upon which the relationship started. Not that she was oblivious to the fact, she allowed her emotions to take control of her. What more? She got desperate and lost faith in God’s ability to lead her to someone in His own timing.

Slowly, she drifted. She prayed less, stopped reading and meditating on the word and stopped engaging actively in the things of God like she used to. Then the worse happened. The guy left and sister was devastated. Whose fault?

Maybe like Grace, your wounds look a lot like rejection, fear, frustration, shame, insecurity or isolation. Or perhaps the scars on your heart show up in the form of bitterness, anxiety, addiction, oppression, or depression.

Sin presents itself in different levels and when we give it the power, it comes between our relationship with God and as real as it may sound, when sin gets in our way with God, we lose confidence in going back to dwell in His presence. The scars of the wounds remind us where we were and the pains feel fresh.
We don’t have to live our lives licking our wounds when God’s Word is full of power-packed passages that offer the cure for whatever is ailing us. Here are a few guides to recovery.

1. Recognize Your Wound: Healing starts when we realize that we are weak and need help. The first step to getting freed from infirmity is accepting that there’s pain lingering on in our hearts and we need to get rid of it.

2. Retreat For Treatment: It’s good to withdraw sometimes from the world, get locked in your closet, dwell in His presence and glean of Him. The quietness that comes with staying alone away from the world and social media refreshes your spirit and energizes you. It gives you the opportunity to work out your salvation and deepens your relationship with God. When you retreat, you come to a place of pleasing an audience of one without being tempted to pretend like you got it all together.

3. Repent And Return: My pastor always says that “There can be no forgiveness without true repentance”. True repentance goes beyond feeling sorry but realising that sin is evil and detesting the thought of it. If we desist from evil because of its ability to ruin us, it’s not enough. Rather, when we hate it because God hates it too. From this point, we can experience God’s forgiveness. After repentance, return to the former works and please God like never before. Support others and show compassion to other wounded soldiers, give them hope and show them the way.

4. Rest On His Promises: Trusting God’s word doesn’t always seem easy as it sounds especially when you can’t see beyond the circumstance. Sometimes it’s hard to let go of our wounds and wind up wearing them as badges of honour. God is unchangeable and so are His promises. “They are ye and Amen”. So whether we choose to admit it or not, His promises will still be and He will remain faithful. When the times comes, he does as He says He will.

Good news is, we don’t have to live the rest of our lives wounded. God waits for us with open arms and He is our endless comforter. That part of scripture that says “He heals the broken-hearted, and binds up their wounds” gives me so much warmth.

I don’t know what wounds you wear, it may be smelly and look so bad beyond repair but Let Jesus in, He’s the balm of Gilead and he says “There is more in the balm to heal than there is in guilt to wound; for there is more in grace to save than there is in sin to destroy.” Jer 8;22 Let this be your inspiration!

Signed: The Khayil Woman
Jackie Hanson

Ps: This message is inspired by a message preached by Ps Jacob Ahenkorah at one of Lifeline Ministries’ all-night service.


Faith Over Desperation


I gave my valued fabric to a tailor to fix for me. I got there on the day he promised me to pick them up and to my utter dismay he had messed them up completely. He manhandled them and didn’t do them the way I wanted. It was totally beyond repair and I got so angry at him, as if he cared… I paid for the mess.  
But why did I give them to him? I got  desperate waiting for my seamstress who never seemed to be on time though she had promised. Now I’m sitting here with no dress to wear to the event and oh my dear fabric is destroyed beyond alteration. If I had being still and waited patiently for my seamstress to come, I won’t be sitting here disappointed and bitter like a lost chicken. You know that feeling when a tailor messes you up?

So you promised God to honour Him with your body and soul in purity. You think you are growing, your mates are marrying and you don‘t even have a boyfriend. You are desperate and questioning God and praying and crying but God seems silent as though He hasn’t heard or seen what’s going on.  
You get tired of waiting and give up. You meet this guy, he have his way with you and leaves you broken without a ring. What now?

This is how we become when waiting on God. When we wait on God for quite a long time and we don’t see its fruits, it’s normal we get desperate along the way. But God is not moved by desperation. He’s moved by faith.

Sometimes in desperation we make deadly decisions only for us to learn a lesson of trusting in Him. Sometimes God keeps silent in our desperation to teach us to trust in Him because they that trust in the Lord, shall renew their strength, they shall run and not get weary and they shall walk and not faint”

God is saying, next time when I ask you to wait you learn to trust and wait. God denies us some things because what may seem good to us, in the end, won’t be good for us. Let’s learn to thank God for closed doors, anyway.
If you have decided to honour God and flee sexual immorality, chill and go through the process. No one promised the journey will be smooth and getting desperate sometimes is one of the few challenges you would face but if you are able to hold on to faith in God, your end will be glorious.

In waiting our strength is renewed, our faith is nurtured, God takes us through the heat of refining and making process but the heat doesn’t burn us. Instead, they produce us much better and beautiful.

You have come too far to give in to someone who doesn’t even know his left from right to manhandle and leave you broken and helpless. If you get desperate, tired of waiting and fall into the hands of someone God didn’t intend you to be with, don’t trust Him to keep it together. It will fall on the rocks!

Look back on how far you’ve come on pursuing purity, focus on the prize and continue honouring God. It may not seem tangible noe but God saves the best for those who trust and obey. The weeping, loneliness may endure for the night but joy shall come in the morning. Hang in there! Hold onto faith! Your best is yet to come! Just believe…!

Signed: Jackie Hanson
The Khayil Woman



20160424105038589God’s faithfulness overwhelms me. I know this isn’t the first time you’re hearing this yet you still may haven’t experienced the hand of God in your life. But why?

Let me draw your attention to this scripture, Psalm 84:11, it says, God will not withhold anything good from those who walk uprightly. Meditate on this scripture and check yourself and see whether you are tune in with God’s word. I’m sorry but don’t live a reckless life and expect to see the hand of God in your life. Observe His commandments and watch Him perform your miracle. If you keep doing the very things he warns us against, then you will not taste of His goodness.
Change your ways!

However, if you have a relationship with Him and do according to His will but it seems your prayers aren’t heard, don’t waver.  God deals with time and seasons and His promises for your life will definitely come to pass. He has done it before, He is still doing it and He will do it for you. Can’t He?

I pray you have a great week and always remember that every good and perfect gift comes from God. If He’s done it for me, He will do it for you exceedingly and abundantly than what you’ve ever imagined.

My name is Jackie Hanson. Cheers to doing His will and waiting for His acceptable time! 

Light and Love

Signed: Jackie Hanson
The Khayil Woman
God’s Cover Girl


Keep Pushing (Pt 1)


When i was in a relationship, i strived to do everything in my might in order to keep him and the relationship ablaze.
Knowing that there are ups and downs in relationships, i always tried to be my best until separation.
I did this because i cherished him and feared the consequence of a breakup, i thrived everytime to rekindle the affection that bound me to him.

Similarly when i got saved, i realized it’s the same walking with God. A decision to walk with God doesn’t guarantee the journey all rosy. Jesus Christ said, “if any man will come after me, let him deny himself,and take up his cross daily and follow me”. Luke 9:23
To me denying myself means, it’s no longer about me but about my master. It means that shunning everything i used to do that brought me pleasure but broke my better half’s heart. If i love Him like i profess, then i must strive to always keep Him close and not let anything come between us.

Sometimes, i wish i hadn’t surrendered. My peers are  out there enjoying themselves, wearing all em’ fancy clothes, and oh…using what they have to get all the luxurious things they want and doing all sorts of crazy things in the name of living life and i have decided to go after Jesus Christ. Really?
Anyone who said the journey of godliness was going to be easy told a big lie.

This is what happens to some of us sometimes. When we loose control of ourselves, the enemy feeds our minds with unworthy thoughts. He’s a destroyer and is always working his way through to get inbetween us and God. He gets us feeling miserable as though we are a loss and missing out on all the worldly pleasures.
Sometimes we feel reluctant to pray, read the Bible or spend time alone with God. Then it seems we are left between a rock and a hard place thinking “should i return  to the world or i should keep pushing through”?

Light and Love,

Signed: Jackie Hanson
(The Khayil Woman)