When i was in a relationship, i strived to do everything in my might in order to keep him and the relationship ablaze.
Knowing that there are ups and downs in relationships, i always tried to be my best until separation.
I did this because i cherished him and feared the consequence of a breakup, i thrived everytime to rekindle the affection that bound me to him.
Similarly when i got saved, i realized it’s the same walking with God. A decision to walk with God doesn’t guarantee the journey all rosy. Jesus Christ said, “if any man will come after me, let him deny himself,and take up his cross daily and follow me”. Luke 9:23
To me denying myself means, it’s no longer about me but about my master. It means that shunning everything i used to do that brought me pleasure but broke my better half’s heart. If i love Him like i profess, then i must strive to always keep Him close and not let anything come between us.
Sometimes, i wish i hadn’t surrendered. My peers are out there enjoying themselves, wearing all em’ fancy clothes, and oh…using what they have to get all the luxurious things they want and doing all sorts of crazy things in the name of living life and i have decided to go after Jesus Christ. Really?
Anyone who said the journey of godliness was going to be easy told a big lie.
This is what happens to some of us sometimes. When we loose control of ourselves, the enemy feeds our minds with unworthy thoughts. He’s a destroyer and is always working his way through to get inbetween us and God. He gets us feeling miserable as though we are a loss and missing out on all the worldly pleasures.
Sometimes we feel reluctant to pray, read the Bible or spend time alone with God. Then it seems we are left between a rock and a hard place thinking “should i return to the world or i should keep pushing through”?
Light and Love,
Signed: Jackie Hanson
(The Khayil Woman)